Thursday, Jul. 21, 2005 - 1:31 pm
+ fue una tortura ..this is fun.

elsbe just picked up the phone and answered as me for, like, dialamerica or something like that. and right now, i suppose it's a survey on underage drunk driving and such, and she's actually trying for intellectual conversation with the telemarketer. elsbe snickered and had to cough to cover... fun part is, i think it's working for the most part. she just had to get the woman away form her little reading thingy first. omfg i couldn't even do that on the spot like that...

..and some of you wonder why i keep her around? if nothing, her entertainment value is the greatest thing *eva*.

::grins and giggles like a little school girl::

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Thursday, Jul. 21, 2005 - 3:11 am
+ so long, fare well i'm getting pretty lax here... but i guess that's just the way that my life has been getting. lax.

things have definitely been happening, but for the most part i've been attempting to see what i can do for others, if i can do for others at all. because, let's face it, though many have called me sweet and compassionate and understanding and so on, i can be a pretty self-centered asshole when i'm not trying to be something else. it took my birthday to figure that out, as well as monday night -the night of my party. on both days things were said, people were hurt, tears were shed... but also, a good time was had by all at some point or another. so really, i've got nothing to complain about. not only did i get to have a good time sandwiching the bad, but i got a learning and growing experience in between.

apparantly my cousin got married on my birthday. no one told me about it... i would have been more than willing to kidnap elsbe for the weekend and go to the wedding, sing in the reception, all that jazz... if nothing to get away from here and all of the bad things that were happening and being spoken of. i ended up printing about half of the pictures from two picture cds for gramma and gwen today -three copies of each photo, and i've gone through two full colour ink cartridges already, kill me- and i really do feel like i missed something by not going. but at the same time, i know that it might have been for the best. i know how my family and i tend to get along, and i might have just ended up being a downer for everyone.

i found out why my sweets hasn't been answering my phone calls and emails. bedridden with possible walking pneumonia, and a doctor's appointment for tomo-.. today. and to be honest, i got her messages to me by pure accident. at some point my laptop restarted during the course of the day, and i *knew* that i would end up missing something... i felt that it was missing before i even knew that it was gone. and then this afternoon when i went in to start work on the pictures on the home pc that keeps me signed in to aim no matter what i do, and i saw her messages to me. she said that she hasn't been able to call or get online 'cause she's been so sick and that she'll talk to me when she gets better. i'd started to worry about her by tuesday, so i'm glad that she got to get a hold of me... i just hope she's alright and/or getting better by now.

to anyone with shitty cell phone service with anyone other than cingular: you should get cingular. not only will i get some money for a new phone or accessories or bill payment or something if you use me as a referal, but they have a really cool way of going about things should your phone mess up. within thirty days, you can go in and talk to them, and i think they can trade you in on the spot if it's not water or heat damaged or something of the sort. if it's been up to a year -in my case right now, as it's been less than a year with my motorola- if it gets damaged somehow or starts malfunctioning (say, the camera on your camera phone quits working, or it randomly shuts off... both of the problems with mine right now), they can send you a brand new phone and a postage paid box and instructions on sending yours back to them. i should have mine by three tomorrow afternoon, which makes me happy.

before i go, i thought i should inform you kids that should you ever want to see a landa in her natural habitat... hit me up on the latest version of aol instant messenger or of msn messenger. the digicam that i got for my birthday is also a webcam (and works better as a webcam in my opinion), and i might be able to entertain that request in the near future.

with that, i bid you goodnight.

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Tuesday, Jul. 19, 2005 - 3:43 am
+ in the meantime after taking that stupid summer school psych class online, i have a 2.916 gpa.

...

gawd, i hope that someone rounds in my favour. because i'm gonna need it in order to stay in school.

i got my schedule in the mail the other day... from what i can tell, the scholarship already paid for my classes.

...

i can't sleep. elsbe's upset, all but screamed in my face to leave her alone, and i feel like i should be able to do something for her... but i don't even know for sure what happened in the first place. i feel bad 'cause she was so upset, and i'm hoping she'll even talk to me tomorrow... let alone get me up when she does, 'cause i honestly wanna see if she'll want to talk at all and such. that, and we just always get up together -at least thus far- sometimes lay together and talk a while before getting up, play some ddr before she has to get ready, all that kinda stuff. i wonder if it's gonna happen tomorrow.

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Sunday, Jul. 17, 2005 - 8:16 pm
+ make a change, and break away so. yesterday was the birthday.

yesterday morning was wonderful. stayed up 'till goin' on eight with elbe. at six or so, after some ddr, we went to mcdonald's and got some breakfast. and then, of course, we slept.

through the course of the day, the fight of the century occured between elsbe and i. guess i've been wrong about a lot of things for a while... though it wasn't just me if i remember correctly from all the fighting. i'd prefer not going back into it, just know that we're over it now from what i know. we're working on some things... i think me more than her 'cause of the circumstances.

last night, kristen showed up after she got off work, then julie showed up a bit later. the two am walmart run was moved to about three, we got some groceries done and such, i got a new lamp for my room since i killed my light when elsbe and i were fighting, and then we dropped aaron off at home, came here, talked some things out, and then passed out again.

i'm sorry i haven't really updated or really detailed lately. haven't had any reason to 'cause everyone's been hearing everything before i can write it.

elsbe was really sweet yesterday amongst everything. she got me a black circle fuzzy pillow and and and an oreo birthday cake, and and and and twenty bucks worth of gas and and and and and a happy bunny book and......

i heart her.

haven't heard from rachel in a couple days, waitin' on an email or somethin'.

i'm kinda distracted by family guy right now. sorry. i'm giving up for right now, i'll hopefully write more later or tomorrow.

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Thursday, Jul. 14, 2005 - 11:18 am
+ here's the story text message that i just got from ashley. well, the conversation, of sorts.

ashley: genevie is out of her coma and sharon is off of her tube.
me: they alright otherwise..?
ashley: i think so

no word on rachel, but there's what i know.

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