Tuesday, Nov. 15, 2005 - 9:50 am
+ can i have your attention please i didn't get to update again last night because i finally went to sleep. and i plan on fully updating later... but i feel the need to say this before anything else...

i apparantly look cute today, with a bit of pathetic thrown in. like a little raggedy puppy. i guess i'll take that, as it's more than i usually get from people that i see day to day.

carry on. that's all i wanted to say right now.

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Monday, Nov. 14, 2005 - 9:02 pm
+ in the middle of a gun fight post-eskimo pie and partway into both a 32 oz. coke and a bag of 99 cent funyuns, i realize that i'm working on a combination of the elsbe method and the landa method of feeling better after a horrendous day. she prefers ice cream, i deal with merely an eskimo pie... and the taste of funyuns combined with coke is actually not all that bad...

there's a possible local buyer or two right now, cash, which makes me feel a bit better as well.

i had a lot that i wanted to say when i got home and got online... but somehow, i don't think that it will come out until after i've finished these funyuns and that coke. i'll try to explain later... today was horrible and yet profound. i realized what i want to do now... what i have to do... to keep myself stable, busy, and quite possibly happy.

more on that later.

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Monday, Nov. 14, 2005 - 5:38 am
+ run, run, run i've been trying to sell a set of drums that i have that are barely used -but are admittedly walmart drums- for the past week now, and am currently on a sleepless night because of it. i thought that i had an actual buyer...

..but found out about an hour ago that it's one of those nigerian scammers, who already has a shipping company coming on tuesday. and three other people have contacted me about buying them who appear to be the same.

what should i do, aside form not being here on tuesday? there's allegeldy a "money order" in the mail as we speak, which i plan on tearing upon recipt, or writing "return to sender" on it. my dad just got up and told me to call the cops after my first class today...

problem being, i honestly need the money. any suggestions on how i can try to sell them, as well as protecting myself at this point? i wouldn't ask if i wasn't a bit freaked out right now...

[edit, 5:51 am] i hate everything.

i called the number that's given online for the kckpd's scam stuff... they've never heard of it, and basically only said not to send the package... and that they can't do a damn thing about the fac thtat they have my home address now.

beautiful. my luck, i'll be dead by the end of the week, including people that i care about. hell, not even me, just the people i care about.

. . .

what the fuck am i supposed to do now... aside from not be home on tuesday and have a sign taped to the door that we don't hav ehte package... i generally wouldn't be home from 11-1 on a tuesday anyway, i'd be at umkc with elsbe...

i wanna cry, i'm freaking out so much right now...

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Sunday, Nov. 13, 2005 - 3:25 am
+ shut up unsure what to say, do, or think, she continued blathering on...

..all the while, hoping that the recipient of the blathering would just kiss her and make her shut up.

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Saturday, Nov. 12, 2005 - 2:27 am
+ there was a day when i was so lonely apparantly, there's someone who's interested in snogging me. relatively local.

that makes me happy inside. especially as i wouldn't mind it myself ^_^;;.

...

i'm tired. i think i'm gonna finish this movie then go pass out. g'night everyone.

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+ why does distance make us wise +