all of the following is more for my own reference than anyone else's, but i'm sure you might be interested anyway:

credit hours needed for general ed. requirement at kckcc: 45
credit hours taken towards requirement: 9
credit hours needed for general ed. requirement total: 36

36/3 = 12 credit hours per semester for 3 semesters

semesters in attendance: fall '06, spring '07, summer '07...

umkc in the fall of '07?

total hours needed (general ed. + creative writing requirements): 69

total hours needed at umkc (without teaching certification, haven't looked it up yet): 33

33/3 = 11 (likely 12-15 though for teaching) credit hours per semester for three semesters.
add on likely fourth semester for teaching.

tentative semesters in attendance: fall '07, spring '08, fall '08, spring '09

graduate as creative writing teacher in spring of '09..?

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Monday, Apr. 17, 2006 - 10:21 am
+ your heaven's a lie

and then i remember why i hated this laptop... at least, one of the many, many reasons why. it's one of the most embarassingly loud sons of a bitches on the face of the earth both when typing and when using the cd rom drive, it gets dirty entirely too easily, and the keys stick weirdly and don't work half of the time that i need them to. i've had to go in and add letters quite a few times already when writing this paragraph. plus, the touch pad for the mouse is entirely too sensitive, and if my thumb happens to come anywhere near it while i'm writing... up in the middle of what i'm saying it goes, and i have the most nonsensical writing ever.

like i've said in the past, friends don't let friens buy hp/compaq. god, i'll be happy whenever elsbe and i actually go sign that stupid piece of paper saying that i'll never use bittorrent here again. fuckers.

in the meantime, i get to sit ehre and listen to lacuna coil for the next hour and a half and realize that yes, i do start working tonight. and while i'm all yey, job! i'm also all goddamn fucking sango who doesn't let me sleep through the night. that damn cat keeps coming to my door throughout the night and howling. oh no, it's not for a few minutes at a time. it's for at least forty five minutes per time that she does it, and then another half hour after that for me to fall back asleep. she did it three times last night. i went to bed at one, and had to get up at eight thirty. cat's lucky she's cute.

yanno what'll suck even more? well, there's two things here. three, really.
one) going to the morning training session tomorrow so i can go to elsbe's wind concert tomorrow night.
two) if i can't go to the morning training session tomorrow, leaving me unable to go to elsbe's wind concert tomorrow night.
three) fucking working on saturday.

now, to those of you out of town or to those who live under a rock, you might say to yourself but landa, you should be happy to be working on saturday even though saturdays are going to eventually be your day off! it's a job with money and you'll be able to do things! and to that i respond with:
free counting crows concert + official opening of the legends area in general, including the bookstore = my living hell.
though i can't say much, i'd be going to that concert if my life weren't signed away for that saturday.

hopefully, i'll find out today what my schedule is to be and what time i'll be working on saturday... good god, i almost hope it'll be in the morning so i don't have to deal with all of the concert people.

..apparently i'm more tired and cranky that i thought i was. meh. it'll blow over. just wish there were time today for me to take a nap... but i have to take elsbe to work so i can use her car for work today.

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Saturday, Apr. 15, 2006 - 10:59 pm
+ will it mean that it's the end and i'm alone? chocolate bunnies and cherry coke go really well with depression together.

...

what's so bad about me? i mean, really. i'm loyal, i'm sweet, i'd do anything for you if i truly care for you, i'd sing you to sleep, i'd bring you breakfast (or lunch, or dinner), i'd completely rearrange my day just to see you, i'd buy you chocolate or flowers or scratch-offs (if you like those instead) just for the hell of it, i'd give you anything and everything that i can, including my heart...

..but that's apparently not enough. there's something about me that keeps anyone from getting any closer than friendship. i have no idea what the hell it is, and i wish i could change it...

..someone tell me how to change something that you don't know about.

p.s. i met lacuna coil today. like, the whole band. elsbe totally froze up and was in shock, while i shook hands with four of the guys and got autographs from all of them (personalized, while elsbe forgot to give them her name). they performed three songs... i'll upload it later, 'cause i recorded them on my phone. it was awesome, even though i couldn't see them 'till the signing.

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Friday, Apr. 14, 2006 - 11:00 pm
+ shall we dance? the way around me taking elsbe to and from work or just about anywhere else? google maps. i follow her the entire way on the map, and if she misses a turn, i can talk her through it 'cause i can see what streets are through streets.

things like that make me feel like i have a purpose. of course i'm sure that the job situation will add to that tremendously, but... it's more personal when it's for someone like her, because i know that she really needs it -the detailed directions, i mean.

she should be here any minute now, only reason i got to write this is because she got to a familiar part a few minutes from here. time for pizza and walmart.

g'night everyone =).

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Friday, Apr. 14, 2006 - 9:58 pm
+ her nose in a book and tonight i will either screw myself over, or take one more step towards being a grown up.

when elsbe gets off work, we're going to walmart, where i shall be buying at least one pair of khakis, at least two shirts, and possibly a pair of shoes. you know, that whole uniform thing? yeah, that. and i'll be giving at least ten more dollars to elsbe for gas as i know she could use it right now, and because she's paid so much more for me in the past.

how will this possibly screw me over? well if this job ends up not going as well as i hope it will -as i'm planning on willing it to be, whether i like it or not- i'll be sixty dollars in the hole with my gramma. that's how much i've taken out to get everything tonight.

..but you know what? i'm still excited that i'll be getting a debit card any day now with my name on it and not anyone else's, hehe.

to be perfectly honest, i am indeed excited about the job. books were once my home, though that was long before i made a home here... most of you don't really know this about me, but i was an avid reader when i was younger. in first grade i had a college reading level, and i read everything that i could get my hands on. my parents took me to the library for the first time, and i tried to check out just about every book that interested me in the kid's section -let's face it, kid's books are far more fascinating to a six year old than college level reading. i also read the funk and wagnalls encyclopedia set that my parents started buying when i was three or four, and got my sex ed in their human body book ^^;;.

maybe this will be an opportunity to get back in to reading, granted i'll hopefully be hearing about books rather than having to read the backs of all of them. the fact that i'm allowed to check out a book for fourteen days at a time as long as there's no damage to it while it's gone helps too. add on that twenty percent discount, and i'll likely be having to try to find more room.

the retail part? not really looking forward to so much.

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