Sunday, Jun. 04, 2006 - 3:52 pm
+ last night she said last night was amazing. awesome amounts of alcohol, karaoke, and fun were had by all -including jerry who dropped by a bit before rue got there. i've greatly missed jerry and last night solidified that fact.
..speaking of which, i wish i were h4rdx0r3 enough to drink water and vodka o_o;;.
..my r key is being iffy. i think i need a replacement again. swear this computer is going to be brand new again by the time its warranty is up.
when we got home, i found we were out of toilet paper, so i called dad to ask if he had it for me to go get some, and gramma offered a mega roll... thus i just went by there. then gwen and i started talking, and she's not quite as insane as she was the last time i spoke with her. perfectly fine when she's not being all bipolar. she invited me to come over and have a few drinks on her birthday later this month, and depending upon whether or not i work i might actually go for that.
i know i promised an entry today, but i'm rather sleepy. think i'm gonna watch bridget jones and get in touch with dell's tech support about this keyboard thing if this r issue continues. more later, likely tomorrow before work.
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Friday, Jun. 02, 2006 - 2:11 am
+ baby, this is perfection. i have a weakness for mysterious and deep brown eyes, a genuine smile or a very serious look, moderately long curly hair, the ability to sing and speak in spanish, looking beautiful in little makeup (or at least little visible makeup), and plain clothes rather than being really dressed up.
..yes, i just saw two shakira videos in a row. the remix of la tortura, and then hips don't lie. my god, they made my crappy night at work better in ten minutes. i swear that mtv hits has some sort of radar that can sense what i really want to see or need to see, because they tend to play it.
seriously though. i think that's what i look for in terms of physicality now. that's completely different than what i saw about five years ago... but what can i say? a beautiful hispanic girl stole my heart, and it took quite a long time to get most of it back -she'll always carry a piece of it with her. and along with that, very rarely can deep brown eyes be so... mysterious. i've seen them in her, and in shakira... i'm not sure if i've ever seen them anywhere else. i love it.
::sigh:: i guess i have a thing for wanting what i can never have. so for now, i'll sit here and dream for a little while longer before i head off to bed for the night, only to wake up and go right back to work...
..i'm so looking forward to girls' night tomorrow night.
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Thursday, Jun. 01, 2006 - 2:02 am
+ all my screams just a whisper it's entirely possible that i'm being bought off right now. will explain that in the future if what will allegedly happen actually happens. a few of you can actually know, but i'm not posting it publicly.
my neck hurts, my joints are freezing, and i'm sleepy. not tired, mind you, but sleepy.
i wish there were a way to prevent your former hurts from ever happening to someone else that you love. sure, everyone has to live and deal with their own lives the best that they know how and that everything happens for a reason... but i really wish i could help someone out right now. i know exactly how they feel, and i have no idea what to do for them... because i don't even know what i would want in that situation -what i did want when i was in that situation.
sigh.
i think i'll possibly work on icons, and definitely sleep soon.
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Wednesday, May. 31, 2006 - 4:51 am
+ help, i need someone. i have betrayed my home at diaryland and bought a two month paid subscription to lj... mainly for the icons, because we all know i need 100 icons to use there. wish d-land had something like those.
anyway.
i blame that and the making of a few of said icons for the fact that i'm still awake. going to bed now. have to be up no late than ten forty five to start making lunch for me and elsbe, since she probably has to be home by about twelve thirty.
..heh. this'll be fun.
+ all that i need says:
+ work drove me nuts today. well, it was fine most of the time, aside from being on register for eight hours again... then i came up ten dollars short in my drawer, so i got written up. no consequences or anything this time, more a warning than anything... but i could end up possibly losing my job if it happens again. ..god, i have so much more that i want to say... but i'm so tired and exhausted. i've been angsting for a couple of hours, hence why i'm still awake. started working on a new layout for diaryland/myspace/maybe xanga... made a relatively major mistake in the beginning, scrapped it, and shall work on it in the next couple of days while i'm off of work. that's right. off of work. as in not working. as in not going anywhere near that god forsaken place until thursday, because i'v espent the last four days of my life there while all of my friends were partying and/or hooking up with each other without my knowledge and getting drunk in the process. ..i'm not angsty or angry or feeling left out or lonely or anything. what ever gave you that idea?
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+ why does distance make us wise +
Tuesday, May. 30, 2006 - 9:39 pm
+ like a flower in the basement
i hate...
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
??
all that i need says:
people who get your hopes up only to shoot them down in their next breath.
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
oh wow
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
what happened?
all that i need says:
so we get this thing in the mail about randy curnow pontiac gmc buick whatev.all that i need says:
they're having a $1 down, $79 a month sale for the next few days.
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
whoa
all that i need says:
dad had me go check it out to ask questions and such, and i walk in and they put me at a table and have me fill something out.
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
what is it?
all that i need says:
guy comes over, says he'll go check my info... that "everyone qualifies, it's not a problem"
all that i need says:
so i fill it out and sit there for a half hour, and he comes back to tell me that my lack of credit along with basically no downpayment leaves my monthly payments quite high.
all that i need says:
and that i'd need a cosigner... and dad's so far behind in his own bills, he refuses to even consider it.Gravity's bed at midnight says:
wow
all that i need says:
so yeah. no clue who else i could ask.
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
man that sucks
all that i need says:
i mean, elsbe has credit kind of... and she's had a job for two years now, going on three... but i
don't want to ask her something like that.
all that i need says:
he gave me his number and told me to call when i found someone, but i know i'm not going to.
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
yeah... how much are the payments going to be?
all that i need says:
didn't say. just more than i'd be able to afford.
all that i need says:
anything much more than $100 i wouldn't be able to do at this point, and i know it.
all that i need says:
the $79 a month was going to be for 60 months if i qualified.
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
mhm
all that i need says:
yanno, i didn't expect anything,
all that i need says:
but he got my hopes up and i was all "ooo, grand am er summat"
all that i need says:
and then i left wanting to cry -_-;;
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
yeah they like to do that
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
*huggles*
all that i need says:
i wish this fucking computer could have been in my name.
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
why?
all that i need says:
now the fuck are you supposed to build credit if no one gives you a chance?
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
get a credit card with a small line of credit
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
keep it paid off - that's a good way to do it
all that i need says:
right. like i can truly afford it.
Gravity's bed at midnight says:
and don't give up just cause it didn't work out through randy
all that i need says:
i couldnt actually afford that car... i'd just make it possible.
Tuesday, May. 30, 2006 - 4:18 am
+ you can have what's left of me. yes it's four am, and yes i'm still up... though about to go to bed.
top it all off, i'm the reason why we didn't get out of the door 'till twelve fifteen as opposed to sometime between eleven thirty and eleven forty five. yey for feeling horrible all the way around! -_-;;
p.s. yey for making new friends and for reconciling with old ones all in the same night, especially after a particularly horrendous night =D
